Torture

I'm sitting here reading a blog from a 23 year old woman who lost her Marine husband in Iraq three weeks ago, while listening to Dixie Chicks "Come Home Soon" and 3 Doors Down "I'm Here Without You"from another Navy wife's blog . Yes, I'm crying, knowing that the possibility of J deploying this year is one that I'll most likely have to face. Why do I do this to myself? I should be studying...